Eventually

I struggle remembering things more than I care to admit. It’s not because I don’t care. I actually care a lot about most of what I forget. I don’t care to admit it because I trained myself that I’ll remember it, eventually.

I have spent the last two weeks doing 7-day challenges. I forget the contents of the challenge midway through the week. 

Yet, by the end of the week I have remembered. 

Throughout the week, I’ll have reminded myself repeatedly that I will make time to complete the challenge.

Eventually, I’ll go to the gym. 

Eventually, I’ll take the dog to play frisbee. 

Eventually, I’ll stop using perfectionism to procrastinate and finish editing the video.

Eventually, I’ll catch up on the blog posts that I failed to write because I was catching up on my forgotten challenges.

Eventually, I’ll do the work that is required of me to get my family where we want to be. 

Eventually, I’ll stop using the goddamn word eventually and I’ll get my shit done so I can live the life that I want to live and not the one that I am living. 

I’m not lazy. I’m not forgetful. I’ll get what I want out of life. 

Eventually.